Oh if you think my first heartbreak was because of love, you
are wrong. The farthest memory I had of the word and feeling “heartbreak” was
when I was 7 years old. I remember shedding so much tears when this happened.
Hm what could a seven-year-old be crying about? Toys???? Wrong. Biasness??? Try
again. Tripping over something?? Big fat NO. Coloring competition???
Oh heck YES
Oh heck YES
Look, I didn’t even understand why would I cry over
something so petty like that? I didn’t even go TO win, I just went there
because it was compulsory for year 1 pupils. But why oh why did I cry so hard?
Not just one time but twice! (firstly, when they announced the winner and it
wasn’t me (I expected that but I still cried lol) and secondly was when I told
my father that I didn’t make it (WHILE crying)
So uhm why did I even cry again?
Okay, let’s put the blame on my father (haha jk) but for
real though, I still remember clearly he told me “Hasanah, kaler bagi cantik
and menang!”. If it wasn’t because of those words he uttered, I wouldn’t have
cared. Tbh, when I was given the paper, I still didn’t care. You see, I wasn’t
good in art, any form that links to it. None. Therefore, my kinesthetic ass
decided to go around talking, helping others picking their color pencils while
ignoring mine. LOL.
Well, not until the teacher informed that there were only
several minutes left for us to finish the coloring. Aaaaand that’s when I panicked because I remembered something-
oh!
MY FATHER ASKED ME TO WIN!!!! HE’D BE DISAPPOINTED IN ME!!! I HAVE TO WIN THIS!!!!
So I cried right THERE and THEN because lol you bet? My paper! I still haven’t colored them!!!!!! I could only see his face when he told me to do my best and win it. I didn’t do both.
Because of my dramatic cry, I managed to gather my friends
to help me finishing the job. THAT, also I did while crying …damn it my memory
is too good to forget that I cried while maundering under my broken sobs- “abah
aku suruh aku menang….TTTTTTT” to my friends. Eeee embarrassing hahaha why did I
even- nevermind. Apa yang penting? Kerjasama!
Even so, it’s cute how I still held a little wish to win
when it’s obvious…. that.. hm… lol.. that’s probably why I cried so hard. Because
I was hoping too much haha
Whatever to all of that because what abah said the next
second I told him was- “lahhhhhh tak apalaaaahhhhh, nanti cuba lagi”
Abah for real la? After all the embarrassing stunt? -__-
