or maybe I am bragging

 There should be a whole another post of me talking about my new school... 

coughs

is it new though? It's been 6 months but whatever, I'll save that for later. 

Today I was just wondering, looking at my students who are currently taking their exams and at the same time having to practice for our tournament next week..........

like, yeah, sure, I pity them but?

I wonder, *get ready for THE question of someone who probably has a main character syndrome*

how did I do it back then?

Not one, not two, heck yeah not even three, I threw myself onto A LOT of things that I had to practice for like sports especially which took my entire day before I got home, and I... still passed my exam with flying colors. masyaAllah but bro? I am amazed? I can see how tired they are now, welps, even I get tired having to train them.

and upon wondering, I couldn't help but mentally wrote a list of people that I should thank for. Yeah, right, there's no way I could have done them all alone. Therefore, biggest thanks to my parents, my teachers, my friends and definitely my strong personality and mental which I also got from my parents yes yes, haha 

aaanddd aaaaaa it makes me want to go back so badly, just to hug my younger self then pat her on the head with a smile saying you've done very well! and that I am proud of her, and I am sorry it took me this long to actually realize this haha, 

but chances are, I'd also whisper to her, "you should have pushed yourself harder" sbdjshkdshdjs 

truly, bc that's what I felt like telling my students. like uh, please, you guys are playing one sport, but I did THREE of them when I was your ag- 

wait, why am I sounding so much like a typical asian mum. naurrrrr 

and yep, I am definitely not bragging.

Back in Penang

Dear non-existent reader of this blog,

I hereby announce that after just a few posts which was written 4 years ago about my mental breakdown of having been posted to Selangor,

I am finally back in Penang!!!

I don't know if going forward from here is going to be better because as much as I wanted to transfer, I thought I'd created a strong foothold in my previous workplace, surrounded by great colleagues who doted on me so hard they had never forgotten to feed me (yes I happily gained 7kg haha) but alas, I believe just being grateful and happy for this chance is a good start, no matter where I am. (jk, it did matter bc this is me living in my answered prayer, Alhamdulillah)

I hope the excitement I feel will stay in me for a long time because I am about to challenge myself to a greater height! well, I hope so. I hope ...so. (there goes my confidence, blown away by a mere thought that maybe I am all talk, no action) 

please do pray for me!