holidaaaaays (update!!)

idc what anyone says but I live everyday counting months, weeks and days to school holidaaays. any holiday really. it's the BIG (definitely not little) thing that gets me going in this life. uwu.

this long holiday, there was no big plan. the only plan I had that I knew I wanted to do was going to ESCAPE. and so I did. thankfully hanis sofia was as eager to gooo because I don't see myself going there alone, no matter how much I told myself that I actually could. most importantly, hanis enjoyed it so much! all the adventure and sky plays were so funnnnn, i might actually turn it into a yearly visit. haha ...ha ha.

and ofc shoutout to my high school friendsssss that definitely made my holidays much moreeee enjoyable. They cured sth in me I didn't think needed a cure. badminton, hiking, just chatting away, shopping, kenduri. tbh I have never had that many friends to go out with at once here in Penang. I probably prayed for it, back when my family teased me. now I can bark "look, these are real people going out with me every day, and they are none other but my friends!" shkdshhdjd JK but that would probably stop them from teasing me that i have no friends... kan kan. haha

and then with Mak. not so much with Abah because he's toooo preoccupied this time around.............. i might sign him up for next PM.....

anyway with Mak, I got her featured in my diary and I will treasure it forever. for.e.ver. we also went out for a lot of datesssss, coffee dates. the barista at this one cafe must have recognized our faces already, but... it's okay i dah nak balik dah :(

and every day without fail i akan walk alone to soak in the feeling of being grateful for the people and the things I do and encounter. this time around i balik i promised myself not to drop even a little tear. over kan. macam la I kerja London jahsjahjsjdhj one day maybe wahahaha tapi still, let's see how I fare :P

(Update!!) - it's been a weeeeek and i shed no tear at all. uwu. hahaha big part of it must have been sbb mak teman i balik duduk sebelah hihi btw tomorrow's first day of school, pray for my peace of mind sbb i taknak feel restless anymore. i wanna put more trust in my colleagues haha

Volunteering?

Alyn told me, "we are not volunteering, we are paid LOL" ...right miss. I know, I am aware of that. but God, you don't need to say that out loud come on... 

*whispers* nobody's gonna know.

Alright jk of course people know. I at least acknowledge that I wouldn't sign up for this if not for the money (lbr I need it walaupun tak byk pun ya kawan-kawan) but to say it's solely because of that pun macam amboiiii? and maybe because it's been a few days now, it never really crossed my mind if I am getting paid or not (trust issue ahaha)

BUT, I know one thing I needed was to be productive. therefore this was the opportunity that I didn't wanna let go. Especially then when my social skill was like back to when I was a toddler. *shrugs* It's been so long right.... who is you, who are me, where are us? Eh eh hahaha

Besides, like I wrote in my last entry, the boredom was gobbling me up and if I didn't do anything about it ...I would have probably turned into a crazy wench who tweets tweets like "beKsiN agEndA yaHudi koWunx!!😤" OR "i love keraja*n😍"

so phewwwwwwww. good grace. *lap peluh*

For this work, I am stationed at the counter where most clerical work is done to confirm vaccinees' identities. There were times when we had foreigners from China and thanks to Alyn, now I am probably at level 1 in conversing in Mandarin (Kids, level 1 is just knowing nin hao right? *stares curiously* *gulps* No?) Anyway, the star of the day was Alyn who takes a weekly Mandarin class, not me so *claps claps* 

Moreover, I LOVE love my carpooling session with Alyn because we always have something to laugh over everyday (usually of everyone's banter of the day) and I care less about how I always gasp for air wearing my mask as long as I can let out my laugh... I guess. welps. not until we laughed over that, too, because I was half-dying for more air LMAO

Anyway, from this I am finally learning how to socialize again, feel how to bear a commitment again, build my confidence around total strangersㅡ the hundreds of vaccinees I attended to and the other volunteers across all ages! and lastly, gaining all the experiences that this work offersㅡ whatever they may be :)

Lastly, may Allah always keep my heart full and steady and may He protect all of us from any undesirable situations that may harm us in any way. Aamiin!

I can't and I won't let people say "it's just that.... why do you have be so deep about it..." Oh, are you sorry that you are not sentimental enough to make a meaning out of every little thing you experience in life? because I am certainly not. even if I trip over a small rock and I feel like writing about it, I will. 

cei, tiber insecure and sensitip. 

Okay, may you only receive and hear good and happy things dear reader(s)!

Oh and please pray for my creative writing because I have been delaying my written pieces for what it's called a writer's block for a while now :(

Room MakeOver?

cei makeover lah sangat!

last tuesday my sis was finally home! from Australia! 

ok you might be wondering why am I telling you this, but gurl, she's got to be the reason WHY we all did this makeover. idk what she was plotting at first when she bought a whole big bucket of undercoat paint and honestly at that point I was like, "oh she's at it again. k" cuz she painted her room thrice already idk. 

but later I found out. dia sengaja beli banyak so that she could pressured us into painting ours too. and after all that pressure– I had to agreeT____T and I obviously did not think much of it, the last time I ever made a huge make-over was when I had to move into another room and that was when I hardly had anything.

wait.

that's not even a makeover. I was just changing room jdjsjsjs

therefore, on the friday night, with little knowledge of what awaited me, I started to unload all the clothes from my cupboard (which was my mom's and honestly 95% of the cupboard were her old clothes, not like I mind) and....

fuh. at that moment, I was already asking myself why did I agree to do this... and my sis was already laughing wickedly, while saying,

"well, doing this is like going for a hike. you can not turn back HAHA" 

and I looked at her, gritted my teeth and continued the deed cuz I know she's right lmaooT______T the old cupboard I was telling you guys earlier is a big-ass cupboard, so in a night I only finished packing one side of it, organized the old clothes into boxes (easier to donate laterrr) and by the time I realized, it was already 1 in the morning. honestly what's new? (p/s: research)

and the next day came (saturday) aha. yeah. lmao. I unloaded the rest of the clothes, move my bed, my book shelf and sorted my stuff into "to-keep" and "to-throw" plastics before the biiiig main event— painting!

this was the only time I ever asked myself why don't I have a roommate because...uh... my hands were so worn out painting the walls..... luckily my sis helped, my dad did too! I think we finished right before asar after a deeeeep cleaning of my room and I hadn't even loaded my stuff back into my room yet that time. we took a quick break and continued after maghrib.

and after maghrib ....remember the clothes I unloaded before I painted my room? AHA! gotta sort those out toooooo. hahahahaha ha ha

and guess how many storage the clothes fit into?

3 luggage, 3 huge plastics, 2 boxes. 
That's what I signed up for, ladies and gentlemen. 

luckily I finished that in a night and the only things left was to tend to my book shelf and my new cupboard (which I took from our guest room cuz it's new sdsdjs)

I started right after Subuh the next day weh, so much from someone who couldn't even turn up for gotong royong ipb* at 7am sjjshassk 

aaaaaand. it's worth it. so so so worth it. 

I LOVE my new room. cei. the vibes, the things I organized. ish. haha bc in my family I am definitely not known for keeping my things stacked and pretty. but now that the old cupboard is gone and that I am blessed with SO much space in my room, I knew I gotta keep this going. 

unfortunately, I don't have any picture of how my room looked like previously but it was in green colour (certainly not my colour of choice..) but of course, of course I have pictures of how it looks like now! *smug face* 

                 

 posting the same one with different 

 hue of the sky! aha!

                                                   

kihkih

it's at least pretty and comforting for me, which is all that matters haha. the combination of white and gray.... (I wanted black but Mak was against it shhshd.. luckily) and Ghirthini cakap buang je kerusi tu ganti kerusi lain hahahaha I agree. but I don't get bothered by it pun so that's all to it for now. however I can't wait to put the fairy lights!! ceiiih

and after all the hard work working on three rooms for three days (Jumaat, Sabtu and today, Ahad), we bought ourselves Starbucks!!!! my order is always the OG lah— caramel machiatto. 

that's all kot for now. the rest two rooms.. uh bye? *side-eyeing haziq* but tomorrow we are continuing on our library aka bilik komputer and dining room. please pray that I don't end up giving up in the middle hahaha

Back to 2012

2012 is not a year that I am proud of. There were a lot of things I wished I could have done differently but in terms of friends I made and kept, they are undoubtedly the sweetest ones I will never forget.  

It takes a lot to still have the same people from your old young days around you as you grow up because it means that they have to accept "the you" then who might be immature, puerile, childish and silly compared to "the you" now. Therefore I am beyond joyful that my old friends could make it to today's hangout like we were back to our most raw and simple state, 2012 hahaha

This too we had dawdled a lot to finally agree on the same day. (adult-ing is sure a hassle huh) but inviting pikah along was handled like a pro– just a brief ask and... ting! she "SURE"-d me. We were close friends for 2 years until she transferred to another school, but ofc we kept in contact! I LOVE her, the same way I love Pokni (Idzni) and Alyn. Heck, we even had a name for our group back then.. called.. POPAPIYN. (can you tell how it was made? haha)

Today we talked and talked and talked some more, and ate and talked again.... and I am NOT complaining! I missed them so much, I mean they probably didn't think so though (because then it wouldn't have taken us few years long to properly meet again, especially with Pikah) but hello I am a busy person! To step out of the house willingly... it took a lot! haha.

We had breakfast-slash-lunch at BoatNoodle (satisfying Alyn's craving), sat at Baskin Robbins for dessert and had cups of Boost Juice as our sort of "energy drink" lmao (because lbr, to talk energetically throughout the day needs a boost, you get it?)

We made chaos, we laughed deliriously, we made fun of all our silly mistakes in the past, totally acted like we were 14.... haih love to spend time like this.... this friendship is wonderful. We might have lost a lot of years together, but I think we definitely had compensated everything today! (no, not enough.  we should get together like this again next time for that!!!) 

Lastly, I am grateful to see them grow the way they are now. we have come so far and I pray that goodness, health, wisdom, wealth, success, kindness and honor are wrapped around us all year long as we enter 2021! Here are some pictures of us then and now haha

                                        

Camping @ Escape, Penang for 2D1N

I don't plan to write a long post about this one. One of us mentioned about camping and I gladly took the wheel to buy the tickets. That's all to it. 

JK.

tbh to pin down everyone to agree on the same date was a BIG hassle. and after a long fight and drama, we finally compromised to go on Friday. I'd had enough of the fight that I quickly just bought the tickets before everyone changed their minds again. 

The ticket was fairly reasonable especially for two-days admission! The basic fee is RM255/person but we added another RM60 in the e-wallet (to buy the food (yahudi price tbh) and to rent the burkini) so the total payment I made via the website was RM275/person overall. They will refund your e-wallet money if you end up not buying anything so no worries! Oh, you can visit/buy the ticket from the website here —> https://www.escape.my/ 

now,

IT WAS SOOOOOO WORTH IT.

and why do I say so?

First, a super duper clean shower and toilet. (and I would give 5 stars for that alone)

Second, the activities!!!!!!!! We tried every single thing (not including the toughness levels, of course) Actually, you name it- 

swinging in the sky on a mega swing? checked.

zipping across the lines high above the ground? checked.

sliding on the longest water slide in the world? checked.

literally jumping from a tallll building to reach the ground? checked.

racing on a water slide towards the pool? checked.

checked. checked. checked. checked.

There are more than 25 adventure/water/gravity plays, you just have to be brave enough (and fit lol) to try them all. Luckily we bought two-day admission ticket (basecamp) so we worried less about not finishing the plays on the first day! We even tried some of the plays for more than two times hahaha cuz we are energetic kids like that. ya.

We then had a BBQ at night- this you can pay with the e-wallet (I think) so the choice they gave us was... free choice. We chose the budget, we named the food we wanted to eat then they bought the raw food and cooked them for us in front of our very own tent! (the best part tbh) 

The staffs were soooo friendly and hospitable!!! they were more like friends than staffs weh. (If you go there, Ali, Julkifli are famous!) and because we were the first basecamp customers after a long time, we felt really special (I am actually laughing while typing this bc I got reminded of them! haha)

The tents had their very own air mattress too (incredible me think?) At night, Alyn, Isma, Liyana and I killed our time by chilling at the table in our basecamp to reminisce our Irshad days before we packed things to sleep. It was personally the point of camping for me, especially when you go with your friends. A campfire-like activity gitu! ahaks.

Oh, we had roti canai outside for breakfast the next day (2-mins drive away) 

In short, I would recommend everyone to go and experience the activities here! Go with your family or friends or foes, and you shall enjoy them to the fullest! I made such special memories here with my friends (talking anime with Liyana on the longest water slide in the world was the greatest part of them all ehek, and then about our Irshad days, our laughs, our hysterical screams!!! hahahahaha)

For most plays, we didn't bring our phones so excuse us for the messy and little number of photos :P

Bye. I need a proper rest, my body is aching all over I can't even walk properly now😭😭

Haikyuu, Daiya and Naruto

idk exactly what I want to write here... but I have a lot to tell you about some anime I have watched and fallen in love with, so bear with me!

First and foremost, Haikyuu.

I think everyone knows this series by heart... or no lol. or at least you have heard someone talking about it once. therefore, you cannot. not. watch it. It was like that to me. I was only gonna check out why everyone loves it, and LOL I was hooked on the very first episode. and I did NOT expect that.

I think the spurt of adrenaline that comes gushing out every time you watch the match is what is fun about anime sport. By now, it's been months since I last finished the anime, so my memory is trampled a bit about the characters but  I remember clearly how I adore Hinata– 

his determination and perseverance!

His persistence in seeking new skills without the need of being insecure or having a big-fat pride is what made me realize how there's never a shortcut to success! You just need to focus on working hard!

and the series is hilarious too. You will 100% enjoy the goofy pair, Tanaka and Nishinoya who share the same one brain cell. I don't even have to mention the awkward Kageyama and his impressive character development. I don't regret watching this series at all!

Next one, Diamond no Ace! *SCREAMS*

I watched this series to fill the void in my heart finishing Haikyu tbh. I have a few on my list, but I was quickly attracted to this series as it involves baseball! A sport that is very familiar to me because I played softball since I was 10.

and ugh, even now I haven't completely moved on from it!

All the terms I have come across with in this series made me feel so excited! It brings back sweet memories. and that's not all!!!!! The plot was astonishingly written, you can watch the rise and the downfall of the main character, grow up with him and the whole team, feel the way they feel when they win and lose.. ugh.. 

and ofc you cannot Not admire the MC, Eijun but if I have to pick the coolest character whom I enjoy his presence every time I watch this series.. it would be.... *drum rolls* Miyuki Kazuya!!!!! 

Gosh?! You would deeply feel me when you watch the show (thank me later ladies) he's effortlessly full of charisma especially in his catcher suit! and his analyzing skill about the pitcher and the game is extraordinary! (I mean, he's the best catcher kot..)

Through him I realized there are so much more about a catcher than what I used to think of. It's embarrassing to say my position was a catcher lol I super love his brutal honesty, his lack of energy to show off, his calm posture... all of these had made me wished he was real u.u 

and the last one.... Naruto. (p/s: SPOILER ALERT)

Do I even have to tell you guys?

THE WHOLE SERIES IS SPLENDID.

there are indeed some parts I wish could be improved BUT THANK YOU FOR NARUTO.

I have grown so attached to the characters.....

idk how the earlier fans who watched it throughout the years endure this bc I binge-watched everything and I still can't properly move on.

oh talking about depressing.. the whole series is so frickin sad. everyone dies. 

ok jk. 

(but for me if more than two people die then EVERYONE DIES. ksdbsdnsdTT______________TT)

The edo tensei jutsu orochimaru did was so.... cruel.. like... who the heck would pay to watch ino-shika-cho defeating their dead sensei without crying?!?!  I WAS MAD (no complain btw)

When Pain attacked Konoha and Naruto came back only to realize he no longer could sense Kakashi's chakra... I literally had to shut down my laptop to cry. the impact was so big. ugh nevermind. There was a part when the ten tails struck out the communication center.. that was so painful too, I had to remind myself that I need to breathe properly.

I actually cried a lot more than you can imagine *stares into distance*

in conclusion, naruto is splendid. and at the same time very bad for my emotional being. haha

all of this.. and they are not real in the end. double depressing :)

bye nak nanges.

Hiking in Teluk Bahang, Penang

This post is long overdue. I wanted to write the night we came back tbh but I was too occupied with the guests in my house (my IPBA bestest friends!) that I just pretended my blog doesn't exist until.. well.. today? Ugh I hate commitments (tiberr)

but trust me, I would loveee to write this post because guest why?

KAMA and HAJAR were in the house!!!

(Although I very much despised the time I had to wake up to fetch them. 5am.. -____- really gurl?) 

But I couldn't care less really! (special thanks to my lil sis and my father, I woke up in shock to see I had a few miscalls.. oooops, not sorry haha) so there I went to Penang Sentral looking miserable, with my worn-out tudung and ayaq lioq basi ...tsk. they had seen the worst of me anyway *whisper* BIG look... djsjjs

the morning i fetched them

thus, my pressure to appeal to my guests had officially started!! but joke on me they didn't really care. we went to vision park, we netflix and chill, went out eating, and bought nuggets for our hiking the next day!!!

Masjid Abdullah Fahim next to Vision Park!

and the next day came for our long-awaited hiking! we went out as early as 6.15am.. Alyn came too (I forced her to) and no regret! we had even more fun with her along, and the best part my lil sis tagged along so that means there's a photographer in the house! :P thanks isha.. (I haven't treated her Starbucks smh...)

my lil sis was also the driver, and we used *drum rolls* maps! it was my fifth time going there yet I had never driven there. and it gave me room to tease Kama who was sleepy on our way there, ugh I love her. and Hajar, my partner in crime. 

we were 5 minutes away from Teluk Bahang when the "maps" brought us somewhere I didn't recognize? well I had a big hunch that it was the wrong road bc I didn't remember having to go up the hills, and then we saw the sign:

"Tanah Perkuburan Cina" yep. a cemetery. you read that right. 

Alyn: weh weh kita kat kuboq, tunggu pa gi? tweet tweet! paan tweet!

-_______________- why are we even best friends Alyn istg. you know in horror movie there's a typical character who always celupar and die first? duh, I really almost said goodbye to her. but we made our way back to the main road straight away without any hassle and tada! 

we arrived! 

the mountains stood the same way the last time I saw them except there was only a few people around....and the SOP. glad they adhered to it! we chose to hike to Pantai Kerachut, the usual.

In front of the entrance!

and then we began hiking! the first 10-15 minutes was so hard, my sister lost her breath, we had to take a few rest. I'd been there five times and I still haven't adjusted to the route. It took us 1 hour 30 minutes to finally arrive at pantai kerachut! phewwww. it was almost deserted, we could have pretended it was our private island and everyone in Penang would not doubt it. haha sooo soo worth it!

In the forest..

the weather was fairly warm and windy with the endless view of the sea, and puffy clouds hanging on the sky. and the green of the mountains, the forest- the fresh air.... it's fair to say we enjoyed our private little time there. I'll leave our pictures to do the justice?

Picture on the left, we were all trying to hold our laugh (bc of my spontaneous joke)

and lastly, our signature pose!

we then safely went back to the entrance via boat! surprisingly it was not that tiring? but refreshing instead. at least compared to before. it was so worth it, ugh I love this short trip so much and I am so glad that I brought them here. we drove back and rest a bit... because this is yet to finish! another IPBA guests coming! oh my oh my.... teka siapa? 

till my next post! (if I rajin! muahahaha)

Hari Raya 2020

this post is overdue, I know. there is nothing much going around and my life, I must say, is boring in the extreme. but I can't bring myself whining about it either. I realize there are people outside who are tested greater and beyond what I am experiencing now. aaaaahhhh chop-chop! enough of the pep-talk, what is this post about again? Oh Hari Raya.

  Selamat Hari Raya!

It's the same for some of us right, given that our movement was restricted? like performing Eid Salaah in the loving company of our family members, the humble preparation for the morning, a little visit to our neighbor's house next door– just enough to remember what this celebration is for and continue harvesting good deeds after.

The solo photo-shoot was rather early this year. I like doing it in the evening better when the sun isn't that blinding like it was that morning. (but come on, I couldn't wait until evening. Changing my attire into shirt and pants was the only thing on my mind the entire morning– which couldn't be accomplished before because of the Raya visits) 

However, I must say I wasn't in disadvantage at all because the pictures came out really good! (puji diri sendiri) Thanks to the flaming and shimmering sun. and oh! oh! I wore eyeliner the first time too, did it myself but ofc, the camera didn't do any justice for that smh *disappointed emoji*

Here to some of my Raya pictures 2020!

LOL to the cringy pink collage :p

We also celebrated my niece 1st birthday with balloons and a cake on that day. It was a rewarding, happy day after all (especially after I changed into a comfortable outfit to relax and chill for the rest of the day. haha :p)

And then to the number of video calls from families and friends! Ugh, I can't express it in words how lucky we are to be in this virtual era of advanced technology- having 6 persons per video call? Impressive and so so much needed, especially in this critical time. After so much fuss and chaos (rolls eyes), I finally got a hold of my friends. We were so uncoordinated for a reason I couldn't figure! haha but it was gratifying to finally see them fit and fiddle, on screen! I caught up on a lot of things with my Irshad and IPBA bestfriends. (except Kakti, Alyn and Isma who legit were there for the ig-worthy screenshot hhh jk) 

My classmates and I also made a spin-off version of the tiktok rush challenge? (please, we are just novices) cuz everyone just did their own version, you can tell we are all amateurs. Below is my part,

(Yes, I only gave them the "after" vid LOL I tried)
special thank to Syida for the amazing edit and compilation hihi

Malam raya was also lively because of my nieces and nephew (oh, aunty miss you hadif and hafiy D:) Alang wasn't on the picture because it's his wife's turn this year, but he brought his family the night before. Bunga api is a tradition at this point haha I was so delighted to be a part of my nieces' early memories about how it is like celebrating Raya. The joy was, of course, unparalleled to what we had back on those days. therefore I found my heart broke a little for them. I know it wasn't as perfect but the night was definitely a merry night. After all, Raya isn't only about that either hihi and once again

Selamat Hari Raya semua! :D

My New Favorite Pastime Now

Have you discovered your new favorite pastime during MCO? I think everyone can at least list one thing we discovered about ourselves, because it's like that to me!

I just knew that I loveeee being inside the pondok, as we call it, and mind my own business alone. It's too warm in the house nowadays. I always wake up in the morning covered in sweat. Don't we all? but that's not my point today.

The message I wanna get across today is, should I feel cold or convenient inside the house, I wouldn't learn how more serene it is outside. It took me a swift second to totally fall in love with the vibe as it's incredibly quiet too. As the MCO is extended, there are less cars on the road, leaving me with only the sound of cicadas, the chattering of the squirrels and the chirping of the birds, which have made me feel so calm and harmonious.

Now my routine is just about the same, to reside here under this old hut after Zuhur,  Asar, Maghrib, and today, right after I performed my Subuh. Dragged my blanket and locked myself outside of the house to read and continue my catnap. and again, I can't describe the tranquility of that moment, being watched by the small cute crescent moon, breathing the scent of the morning air.... phew. 100% would do it again.

Such little thing kan? Not like I'd never spent my time here, but it felt waaaay different, and better? Maybe because I have started to be concerned over how my future me would look back at this day, at me, of what I did, so there would be no regret, only an acknowledgement and appreciation to the time spent brilliantly. There are more in fact, but let's just save that for my future me to see!

Special thanks to Mak and Abah too sebab selalu teman :D we usually hang out together lepas kerja and sembahyang! and below are the pictures I'd taken this morning and evening. (sebab cantik hihi)

                           
                                             
The moon! geram.

#1Day1Kuliah

What's this #1Day1Kuliah about? Well you bet. Inspired by my parents, I think it's a chance for me, as well, to sit and listen to kuliah agama because I don't feel good letting this opportunity go– this precious time right now. My parents never miss the live kuliah by their favorite tok guru from the kuliah they attended before MCO. Therefore I think, why can't I do the same? So here's my first attempt to write what I have listened to! (I don't intend to write this everyday btw)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

#1Day1Kuliah - Mufti Menk (Stories of the Prophets, Prophet Sulayman A.S.)

Today, I listened to a podcast from our respectful Mufti Menk, and I was again, astonished and humbled. It’s been so long since I last listened to his podcast, and May Allah forgive me for the times I had taken for granted. 

First and foremost, I was attracted to listen to Prophet Sulayman’s story as I was reminded that the only thing I remember about him was that- he could talk to animals, or at least that’s what I remember telling my non-Muslim friend about. Coincidentally today, I was on Surah An-Naml (The Ant) which had further guided me to listen to the podcast!

In conclusion of the podcast I have listened to about Sulayman A.S., he, Sulayman A.S. had everything a mankind could ever ask for, aside from the famous “talking with animals” narration which was already great by itself. Other than that, you name it- he had a perfect attitude of a man and a king, he was given prophet-hood, he was presented with a mighty kingdom with huuuuge armies which include all different kind of creatures from human-kinds, animals, the jin-kinds, whom he had a full control over- whether to jail them, punish them or order them, and on top of all those amazing attributes, he was also given the power to control the wind that it was said he could send  someone to a place which journey would have taken a month, in just a single day by using a plank-- by controlling the wind.

(We probably can't relate to all of those mukjizat right? but remember, He is a Prophet!)

and he was also a JUST man, his armies highly respected him but were also frightened of him and his wisdom was beyond one could ever imagine! and Allah has described that even after ALL of those attributes,

"He, Sulayman A.S. is an excellent worshiper of ours."

Often we are given blessings, after some times of being grateful, Shaytan would trick us and take our Iman away so that we turn away from Him and become arrogant, condescending and haughty. BUT LOOK AT SULAYMAN A.S. MashaAllah, how could we not be humbled? I learned a lot about myself from this single podcast as I reflected my doings.

Honestly, sometimes, I feel great about myself which is not wrong though... 

(It's okay to feel great about yourself, not to the point of riak lah tapi)

but for me, bc it sometimes leads me to think that I have done enough, in a riak kind of way (syaitan lah ni!), this podcast made me realise that... it's really, really wrong of me to feel like that.....

Oh pls, nothing I do would ever be sufficient to what He gives me everyday, so idk what do I feel so great for, for the little amalan I did that I assumed was enough? I should have done moreeee! Therefore, this story humbles me to the core. obviously I am nothing compared to Nabi Sulayman but even so I would love to learn to be humble like him- who was given so many things and never forget to due them to Allah and an excellent worshipper on top of that! whom Allah loves soo much... I wanna be humble in a way that I want to avoid myself from getting complacent with my deeds.. InsyaAllah.

That’s only the gist of what I have listened to. The podcast actually described more of Surah An-Naml, ayah 15-44, from what Sulayman was blessed for, to how smart and wise his du’as are that made Him so loved by Allah, for he has everything yet never forget to due it to Him, down to how he worked with his armies to make Balqis worships Allah.

and by the end of the podcast, it reminds me that there is really NOTHING Allah cannot do, in fact, everything that happens, He knows, and by Him it happens. Kun! Fayakun. Therefore, always, always remember to turn to Him, be dependent on Him for He listens, He plans.

Links: Spotify, Youtube

Surah An-Naml

#Olympics_EXO

I want to be able to look back at this post and admire the biggest love I would ever have for someone in my life hence I am writing this.

I have been stanning them since 2012. It's been 6 years and my love and pride for them are still growing, even bigger at that. I am ridiculous yes. anyway back to the topic, today, 25/2/2018, another history is marked under EXO's belt. wallahi my chest was bursting with so much pride and still is. EXO, the "Nation's Pick" has successfully performed at Olympics Closing Ceremony stage! yes O L Y M P I C S. it will take another 20 years for another Olympics to be held in Korea and they, out of all Kpop acts, were chosen for thIS era. The era I am living in. I couldn't describe what I feel. I squealed so hard that I woke up my roommate in shock (sorry za, I didn't mean it. I was just too excited and I forgot you were sleeping...)

like I don't care if Olympics are insignificant to others, but it is not, to me. this is probably one of the events that brings the whole fandom together at a time like, it's too overwhelming and I can't really describe. (I am silly I know haha)

I have yet to download EXO's whole performances but I tell you.. IT WAS EPIC. THEY WERE AMAZING. I HAD GOOSEBUMPS ALL OVER AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. (oops sorry for the capslock, not sorry) 

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I really wish I could meet them and when it happens, I think I would be the happiest girl on earth.