Had to Give Up My Bed to a Witch

Wow, wow, wow.

Look at me now, typing on my laptop while lying down on this cold hard floor in my own room!!! (although I am actually on a carpet but let's not be nice)  

Why you ask me?

because I had to give up my bed to the witch!!! just because I lost at osom!!!

This witch is really... (her name's Alyn btw but don't be deceived by that normal name)

so now yeah, she's resting on my bed while I have to once in while check my waist/hip to make sure there's no crack. and if you ask me why didn't I prepare a toto... well. I didn't think it was necessary since I have a bed lol ....guest who?

jkjk I wanted to buy it ofc but I've been putting it on hold thinking 'ah later laaaah' so now who's losing? Yeah ME. 

padan muka.

one night. I am going to bear this cold hard floor (with carpet lol) to honour my lost to Alyn in osom. should have never agreed to this game :<

but hey, if I could survive sleeping in cold weather in an open hall on a cold hard floor (without carpet!) 4 years ago (kem unit uniform), this is nothing. haha 

my view while the witch's laughing at the background 

but ofc you can't hear her cuz this is a .jpg #tiberbitter

Twist, Symbolisms, Setting

I know I've told this many times but Alyn was genuinely the one person I remember wanting to be friend with when we were both 10 years old, for just because. it was, as far as I can remember, the first time I ever made an effort to be someone's friend. nevermind her reply that was kinda boastful and childish to my effort(?), .(..yep i remember them all) I still... idk.. I just want this gurl to be MY friend. but then we parted ways without even properly knowing each other.....

...and boom! 3 years later, there she was standing in front of 1IK. and ofc I recognized her instantly! the first sentence I spoke was "hampa Azlyn kan?" oh.. God's planning.

now she's just ...straight up annoying. 

pls I love recalling such memory because I AM dramatic and this story kinda fits all the drama elements I'd learned. the twist, the symbolisms, the setting. 

oh I remember how I formed my friendship with sfs and gals too, the du'a I prayed, the friends I got. these are the memories of people other than my family that I hope I won't forget. thus, the recalling. and for another phase of my life now- gee. it's just that …I haven't made an effort to type out the words which I swear are in my mind already.

the classic selfie. LOL

Research Report Submission

holla amigos.

alright I know this is not our final assignment submission for this semester, but please PLEASE just let me enjoy this moment of glory for now, at least for a day before I crawl back into reality because

YES I DESERVE IT.

(the other 7 assignments can wait)

I am sure all of my friends can resonate with me on this like, we were literally on the same boat and honestly without them, I don't think I could pull this off. Allah knows how easily distracted I got when I was at home so instead of doing my work, I was always someone who would prefer laying on bed, day-dreaming, really. without Kama and Syaza who often shared their progress with me, I would still be in the dump right now and for that, I feel so, so lucky and to Kak Anih as well for the coffee she made for me every night without fail, I love her.

I know I have so many things in my things-to-do-after-completing-research list but SCRATCH ALL THAT because for now I just wanna have a big feast with my friends!! Alhamdulillah, being  here in college with them is a blessing I didn't know I would feel this grateful for, because, gosh, the energy of everyone typing on the laptops altogether in the same room, the intense energy.. it made me feel like I was in a war.

Ok that's probably an exaggeration.

because rather than typing energetically, there was just a lot of sighs, screams of frustration, me crying over naruto, azmira's snore, lai's classical music, syaza's purrr, hajar's constant laugh over whatever she was watching on her laptop *side-eyeing SJ* and kama's clown energy that turned all of us into one. haha.

so now for the feast, we are ordering sushi king from Mid Valley as we speak and I am definitely going to have fun with them. this is enough for me.

and I am sure gonna miss this.

(not you, research)

where it all happened. 
(excuse the crappy resolution sbb
pakai laptop cam hahahaha lmao)

Back to 2012

2012 is not a year that I am proud of. There were a lot of things I wished I could have done differently but in terms of friends I made and kept, they are undoubtedly the sweetest ones I will never forget.  

It takes a lot to still have the same people from your old young days around you as you grow up because it means that they have to accept "the you" then who might be immature, puerile, childish and silly compared to "the you" now. Therefore I am beyond joyful that my old friends could make it to today's hangout like we were back to our most raw and simple state, 2012 hahaha

This too we had dawdled a lot to finally agree on the same day. (adult-ing is sure a hassle huh) but inviting pikah along was handled like a pro– just a brief ask and... ting! she "SURE"-d me. We were close friends for 2 years until she transferred to another school, but ofc we kept in contact! I LOVE her, the same way I love Pokni (Idzni) and Alyn. Heck, we even had a name for our group back then.. called.. POPAPIYN. (can you tell how it was made? haha)

Today we talked and talked and talked some more, and ate and talked again.... and I am NOT complaining! I missed them so much, I mean they probably didn't think so though (because then it wouldn't have taken us few years long to properly meet again, especially with Pikah) but hello I am a busy person! To step out of the house willingly... it took a lot! haha.

We had breakfast-slash-lunch at BoatNoodle (satisfying Alyn's craving), sat at Baskin Robbins for dessert and had cups of Boost Juice as our sort of "energy drink" lmao (because lbr, to talk energetically throughout the day needs a boost, you get it?)

We made chaos, we laughed deliriously, we made fun of all our silly mistakes in the past, totally acted like we were 14.... haih love to spend time like this.... this friendship is wonderful. We might have lost a lot of years together, but I think we definitely had compensated everything today! (no, not enough.  we should get together like this again next time for that!!!) 

Lastly, I am grateful to see them grow the way they are now. we have come so far and I pray that goodness, health, wisdom, wealth, success, kindness and honor are wrapped around us all year long as we enter 2021! Here are some pictures of us then and now haha

                                        

Camping @ Escape, Penang for 2D1N

I don't plan to write a long post about this one. One of us mentioned about camping and I gladly took the wheel to buy the tickets. That's all to it. 

JK.

tbh to pin down everyone to agree on the same date was a BIG hassle. and after a long fight and drama, we finally compromised to go on Friday. I'd had enough of the fight that I quickly just bought the tickets before everyone changed their minds again. 

The ticket was fairly reasonable especially for two-days admission! The basic fee is RM255/person but we added another RM60 in the e-wallet (to buy the food (yahudi price tbh) and to rent the burkini) so the total payment I made via the website was RM275/person overall. They will refund your e-wallet money if you end up not buying anything so no worries! Oh, you can visit/buy the ticket from the website here —> https://www.escape.my/ 

now,

IT WAS SOOOOOO WORTH IT.

and why do I say so?

First, a super duper clean shower and toilet. (and I would give 5 stars for that alone)

Second, the activities!!!!!!!! We tried every single thing (not including the toughness levels, of course) Actually, you name it- 

swinging in the sky on a mega swing? checked.

zipping across the lines high above the ground? checked.

sliding on the longest water slide in the world? checked.

literally jumping from a tallll building to reach the ground? checked.

racing on a water slide towards the pool? checked.

checked. checked. checked. checked.

There are more than 25 adventure/water/gravity plays, you just have to be brave enough (and fit lol) to try them all. Luckily we bought two-day admission ticket (basecamp) so we worried less about not finishing the plays on the first day! We even tried some of the plays for more than two times hahaha cuz we are energetic kids like that. ya.

We then had a BBQ at night- this you can pay with the e-wallet (I think) so the choice they gave us was... free choice. We chose the budget, we named the food we wanted to eat then they bought the raw food and cooked them for us in front of our very own tent! (the best part tbh) 

The staffs were soooo friendly and hospitable!!! they were more like friends than staffs weh. (If you go there, Ali, Julkifli are famous!) and because we were the first basecamp customers after a long time, we felt really special (I am actually laughing while typing this bc I got reminded of them! haha)

The tents had their very own air mattress too (incredible me think?) At night, Alyn, Isma, Liyana and I killed our time by chilling at the table in our basecamp to reminisce our Irshad days before we packed things to sleep. It was personally the point of camping for me, especially when you go with your friends. A campfire-like activity gitu! ahaks.

Oh, we had roti canai outside for breakfast the next day (2-mins drive away) 

In short, I would recommend everyone to go and experience the activities here! Go with your family or friends or foes, and you shall enjoy them to the fullest! I made such special memories here with my friends (talking anime with Liyana on the longest water slide in the world was the greatest part of them all ehek, and then about our Irshad days, our laughs, our hysterical screams!!! hahahahaha)

For most plays, we didn't bring our phones so excuse us for the messy and little number of photos :P

Bye. I need a proper rest, my body is aching all over I can't even walk properly now😭😭

Deeparayear.

Deepavali+Raya+Chinese New Year = Deeparayear! Cool tak? haha

I remember the same night I laid down on the floor staring at the ceiling waiting for Subuh and I told myself "I can't wait to blog about this party" while smiling like an idiot ..and now that I am actually here...... can the letters type themselves? v.v

preparing for a party is always lively. honestly, what's better than gathering around, roasting your friends, acting like savages WHILE doing your work? tell me. and the food department did a great job frankly! dumplings, vaddai, ladu, apam, our special teh tarik exclusively brewed by Linggesh (cewah) AND more. for me, a party with good food should be done everyday. *pans towards the camera* seriously. 

After embarrassing ourselves in the sudden ad-hoc meeting attended by all students wearing simple, cozy clothes instead of sarees, kebayas, punjabis and cheongsam.. the party began!

We took some pictures, went down to enjoy the live basking, ate, take pictures some more, ate again, aaaand to the grand finale - games! (Kama and I were in this department, we prepared them)

What are games without the loud screaming and yelling, right? We saw it coming honestly - getting shut by the warden I mean. yeah yeah. whatever. Imagine playing charades, stick and stand and musical chairs without screaming. luckily we were almost finishing when the warden warned us *shrugs*

Oh, did I say anything about a quiet game like Mafia game? We played this. I frankly thought it would be boring, but hell... we enjoyed it until 5 in the morning y'all. 

It got so intense I thought the friendship would be over by the time we wrap up the party haha every round you either get painted in a corner or you win. the analysis- I forgot my friends are actually geniuses. As a fully-certified ghost (or bystanders) for more than 3 times, I was impressed! I also wanted to curse so badly. I am sure the other ghosts would relate to that as well. To see my friends' happy faces when they were clearly high and sleepy was entertaining tbh haha and the Muslims just straight away slept after Subuh that night. phew. at least we got to sleep!

...only to wake up the next morning with an announcement that all students are compulsory to go home because of the pkpkpkp. perfect ending me think.

Girls-Only Party!

decided to have a party on a whim when we were having lunch on our first day of cmco. like one second we were eating and the next second we were already planning how to carry out a party without getting caught. and we are so lucky as out of the whole people in this block, we are the only ones left here ...that's why we thought- why not!

and then there goes our preparation! we divided our tasks- from food to decoration to technical support to video maker to creating our own invitation card and poster! we were so involved and indulged in doing the tasks, I forgot when was the last time we had this much fun. haha.

AND the night was epic and crazy! I LOVE how we dolled ourselves to the max to match the event. so so proud of my girls for making this party a success! Special thanks to Kakti for doing everyone's make-up! and Loshini... gosh, I think she mistook her choice to become a teacher instead of a make-up artist.

of how the warden warned us for being too loud, to stopping the music and ran in panic bc we thought there was someone knocking on the door, of the fun games we played together, of chicken popcorns, cokes, wedges, cute brownies, sandwiches, fried chickens, the fairy lights we hanged and the grand songs we picked. just 13 young people vibing with the music, feasting, dancing and laughing. How do I tell my friends that I want this event every weekend guys? 

we even had a montage video specially made by hajar. and gosh old videos and photos of us were in the montage, i felt overwhelmed- embarrassed, sad, touched and happy all at once. prop to hajar! *clink glasses* the karaoke session too, phew! talent!

definitely the one night that I won't forget.

yes.

Adjusting Life

two words - NAK NANGIS.

the end.

that's what I actually felt the first five days I was here.. weird sangat, macam tak boleh nak adjust dah duduk sini. I feel defeated tbh bc gosh I can't believe I am 22 and still act like that huhu therefore, I stopped acting tough and just cried my heart out. like a kid I am.

and I felt sooo relieved after that, and... I finally feel adjusted.

Apart from the fact that I am going to shoulder bigger responsibilities now, I am beyond delighted that I finally met my friends!! my happy!! pills!!! 

pastu apa lagi ek...

oh, school is fun too. I haven't known the kids long enough to talk about them but I hope they are at least adorable and not just ..plain evil. please.

Kakti is still in a happy relationship. I am happy for her.

Kama is still ...a crack. I laugh at every thing she does, the same way she does to me. two idiots, we are.

Hajar.. oh, sorry, including her.. three idiots. 

Syaza.. she's still purring. glad the purr did not change into a roar now. basically, she's the same.

Mira.... just as assertive as she is, with Lai clinging along. What a sight. 

Kak Maine.. now now.. wow. can't tell much, it's a secret but I looove her help. definitely one that makes me feel at home. 

don't wanna part with them, but I absolutely can't wait to graduate. less than a year left! we can do this girls!

Hiking in Teluk Bahang, Penang

This post is long overdue. I wanted to write the night we came back tbh but I was too occupied with the guests in my house (my IPBA bestest friends!) that I just pretended my blog doesn't exist until.. well.. today? Ugh I hate commitments (tiberr)

but trust me, I would loveee to write this post because guest why?

KAMA and HAJAR were in the house!!!

(Although I very much despised the time I had to wake up to fetch them. 5am.. -____- really gurl?) 

But I couldn't care less really! (special thanks to my lil sis and my father, I woke up in shock to see I had a few miscalls.. oooops, not sorry haha) so there I went to Penang Sentral looking miserable, with my worn-out tudung and ayaq lioq basi ...tsk. they had seen the worst of me anyway *whisper* BIG look... djsjjs

the morning i fetched them

thus, my pressure to appeal to my guests had officially started!! but joke on me they didn't really care. we went to vision park, we netflix and chill, went out eating, and bought nuggets for our hiking the next day!!!

Masjid Abdullah Fahim next to Vision Park!

and the next day came for our long-awaited hiking! we went out as early as 6.15am.. Alyn came too (I forced her to) and no regret! we had even more fun with her along, and the best part my lil sis tagged along so that means there's a photographer in the house! :P thanks isha.. (I haven't treated her Starbucks smh...)

my lil sis was also the driver, and we used *drum rolls* maps! it was my fifth time going there yet I had never driven there. and it gave me room to tease Kama who was sleepy on our way there, ugh I love her. and Hajar, my partner in crime. 

we were 5 minutes away from Teluk Bahang when the "maps" brought us somewhere I didn't recognize? well I had a big hunch that it was the wrong road bc I didn't remember having to go up the hills, and then we saw the sign:

"Tanah Perkuburan Cina" yep. a cemetery. you read that right. 

Alyn: weh weh kita kat kuboq, tunggu pa gi? tweet tweet! paan tweet!

-_______________- why are we even best friends Alyn istg. you know in horror movie there's a typical character who always celupar and die first? duh, I really almost said goodbye to her. but we made our way back to the main road straight away without any hassle and tada! 

we arrived! 

the mountains stood the same way the last time I saw them except there was only a few people around....and the SOP. glad they adhered to it! we chose to hike to Pantai Kerachut, the usual.

In front of the entrance!

and then we began hiking! the first 10-15 minutes was so hard, my sister lost her breath, we had to take a few rest. I'd been there five times and I still haven't adjusted to the route. It took us 1 hour 30 minutes to finally arrive at pantai kerachut! phewwww. it was almost deserted, we could have pretended it was our private island and everyone in Penang would not doubt it. haha sooo soo worth it!

In the forest..

the weather was fairly warm and windy with the endless view of the sea, and puffy clouds hanging on the sky. and the green of the mountains, the forest- the fresh air.... it's fair to say we enjoyed our private little time there. I'll leave our pictures to do the justice?

Picture on the left, we were all trying to hold our laugh (bc of my spontaneous joke)

and lastly, our signature pose!

we then safely went back to the entrance via boat! surprisingly it was not that tiring? but refreshing instead. at least compared to before. it was so worth it, ugh I love this short trip so much and I am so glad that I brought them here. we drove back and rest a bit... because this is yet to finish! another IPBA guests coming! oh my oh my.... teka siapa? 

till my next post! (if I rajin! muahahaha)

Road-trip to Perlis

Road. Trip. yea, I guess. I mean yeah? We did ride a car going there, but honestly other than going to Isma's uni, we really didn't think of going anywhere else, except maybe planning on taking our lunch at a famous stall, and yea, we did that. it was popular among jeti-goers, according to Mak Isma. and the best part was Mak cik yang belanja hihihihi

oh btw unimap is huge. like the whole area is enormous. I think the whole Perlis is unimap, or maybe 80% of it, but God, I would boast about my uni if I had what they have. the panoramic view of the mountains, green and fog-enshrouded.. imagine waking up to such picturesque view, it would be so motivating for me ewah. konon. but oh, I envy that a lot. other than that, thanks. (KL lrt, you still win don't worry haha)

and after eating lunch, Isma was like, "Takkan kita nak balik dah kot?"

well, thanks Isma for asking the obvious.

and so we continued the road-trip.

wait, have I told you guys how annoying and irritating Alyn was the whole journey? God, I wish I had brought a tape to shut her mouth from pestering us with vexing questions about random plants or things she saw on the road, claiming them as general knowledge. Actually yes, they are general knowledge. BUT you have to hear and see for yourself how she behaved and you would think I was being too nice for not throwing her out– yep. she was That exasperating.

ok done ranting about her.

where were we again?

oh, yes, we were arguing about going to Bukit Ayer OR Gua Kelam after lunch, and we ended up going to both lol now That's a road-trip. I really couldn't get enough of the beautiful sturdy mountains and the fresh paddy field along the road. It took us 30 minutes to Bukit Ayer and another 25 minutes to Gua Kelam, so the whole minutes I was enjoying the sight.. aaah.

and Oh god, both places were so deserted, if somebody had told us we came to a wrong place despite actually standing in front of the signboard, I would definitely believe it. 

Bukit Ayer was a lil bit creepy because we only saw like 5-6 people.... along the road.. so we quickly turned back. and the resorts and houses looked so creepy, like they haven't been occupied for YEARS. but I was glad we at least made it to Taman Herba nearby.

aaaaaand I felt like I won for some reason because I had always wanted to visit Gua Kelam. The last time I went there was when I was six. and I remember this one particular spot vividly and part of me wanted to confirm whether it was real or was it a dream (sometimes I can't differentiate them) and yooooo, it was real!!! it took me 16 years huh...

Gua Kelam, and the spot I remember is real! I think the best thing was the sound of the waterfall, and the cave itself! soooo calm and peaceful. I know and I get why some people find Gua Kelam boring, but hey don't try take it away from me, IT IS worth it.

now to the pictures!

the collage is back lol. goodnight.

First Post-MCO Hangout

This post is gonna be filled with so much satisfaction and joy because I finally met my bestfriends! despite practically meeting them everyday via whatsapp and social medias, the feeling is not the same man. incomparable. I thought I was gonna left rotting until I finally see them, bc you know, with all the orders and regulations. BUT oh well, Alhamdulillah! we are progressing Malaysian! just make sure to always practice new normal outside!

and of course our choice of place is always The steamboat and grill.

Steamboat and grill is like our thing since forever, istg.

Hungry? Steamboat and grill.

Want to catch up stories while munching on food? Steamboat and grill.

Too many options on where to dine? Steamboat and grill.

Steamboat and grill. Steamboat and grill. Steamboat and grill.

The one that had saved our friendship from endlessly arguing about where to eat. yep.

2015-present. Hahaha

Alyn is still a crack with so much toxicity but hey, she's my bestfriend, I'll take it. (jk I am actually plotting a plan) and Isma is still as mad as she is. phew I am glad they did not turn up into a mess I imagined them to be, I was so worried. Worried that Alyn would drive to my house in jamban slippers (wait, Lol it happened) or Isma with tudung terbalik (Gosh she came wearing Duck scarf y'all.. and she slayed) Indeed, I worried for nothing. 

and to the eating event. Nothing to tell here really, we just ate, gossiped a bit, mengata me a lot, just the usual normal stuff.. and then to Vision Park. it's been so long... *teary eyes* In fact the last time I saw Isma, we went to Vision Park too. The place is as tranquil as it was, beautiful, with less crowd, ofc. the lake still looks placid and glassy, and oh the view of the stunning elegant Masjid, still bewitching to the eyes. haih, so much to describe. and I am so gratified that we went there!

and then towards our total last minute plan to Pantai Bersih. Ok this is going to be embarrassing to admit: I'd never been there.... or maybe I had but was too young to remember (honestly pls I can't accept the fact that I had never stepped my foot there) Therefore, thanks Isma! the breeze of a pantai always never fails to calm me and so this one!

we took lots of pictures and selfies as we watched the sunset by the beach! this is why I always say YES to last minute plan! See for yourself (cuz maybe it's just me, really haha) but but! however the pictures are, we still made good memories there, hihi.

tbh, thanks Snapchat filter lol.
and can't wait until the other three can finally join us♡

Hilarious Video-Call

wouldn't be here if it ain't for the video call with syaza. 

we. were. hilarious. 

this is just one of those moments we would probably enjoy doing in IPBA now if we weren't stuck at home. but hey, doing it virtually is fun too. I'll take it. I can't remember the last time both of us sat together to unleash all the inappropriate jokes we have in our minds.

oh come on, we all have that one friend, or MORE THAN ONE FRIEND that choke up bantering just about anything meanwhile you just sit there staring while holding your laugh, waiting for your friend to ACTUALLY start telling her jokes, snorting in between. no?

like this?

We were on a good track and I thought the discussion was going to end smoothly with no damage to our lungs for laughing too much. but nope *cross the list with a big X mark* not today. honestly, poor the screen. it had to witness us losing our minds over small things we joked about, that I am sure we could have been slapped if it was actually a living thing. 

The thing with syaza is that, we can literally stare at each other and burst into laugh. so you can imagine how it was like video-calling with her and even so, we tried so hard to suppress our laugh (because we are at home and it was late at night too. we don't wanna make pontianak jobless) Syaza and I shared so much common ideas, even when they are sometimes stupid and nonsense hahaks and I guess that is why we can comfortably speak to each other. 

and I am so grateful for her, for each of my friend. It's a blessing to be surrounded by friends that wouldn't expose me for the things I do (for obvious reason haha) actually, more like they couldn't because I have the exact same thing against them too. This is how the friendship is withheld tbh, in case you are curious.

Ok but my friends are honestly a bunch of fun people. I don't have many, I really only have a few to express my honest feelings to, so they mean a lot to me. Hope it's the same case for them too (who knows if one of them is actually waiting to kill me, you can't be too complacent with people hhh)

Anyway, I miss my friends so much. really can't wait until the day when the only thing that keeps us apart is the distance less than 1m. aw. haha night!

McD Pajama Party with GALS

yes you read it right! pajama party in McDonalds Bangsar y'all, bukan beshe beshe ohkaaay! idk what went into our mind that day when everyone collectively agreed that spending the whole night in McD was a great idea.. lol alas, we enjoyed it so much!

the idea was to walk out of our college few minutes before curfew in our (sort-of) pajamas, and get to McD to spend the whole night there, playing games, open up about things, and basically just having fun. and that's exactly what we did. 

even the night was beautiful. I might have regretted a bit en route to McD as we settled on walking instead of hailing a Grab, because it was (annoyingly) tiring (I prefer paying for Grab, easy peasy) HOWEVER, oh my god the view and the night breeze was worth the pain and sweat, like come on? you at least gotta try it once! As it was already late at night, the city somehow looked peaceful, and the neighborhood was endearingly quiet... which is rare to experience in this hustling city. It made the whole strolling with my friends more memorable.

Arrived, finally. Phew.

Strolling

the night went on as planned. we laughed deliriously, we made fun of each other.. just a bunch of girls trying to shift away from reality for the night and wrap it with momentous joy that would be remembered in 10 years' time! Just a simple event we promised to try once. haha

and the laugh is not all! we cried too (as much as I want to believe that it was bc of my yawn LOL gimme a break pls) but let's not get deep into that. I am worried I would spill everything as my fingers type. hahaha till then seeya.

the last women standing in McD that night.
6.30AM.

MyTown Date with Alyn

well, here we go again.

mytown mytown mytown..... when will Alyn and I ever grow up... like there's really no other place for us other than malls but whatever (rolls eyes) im gonna save this for another post.

*clears throat*

we were apart for a month so of course we I was all giddy and excited bc I missed her so much! (to slap her when I laugh out loud)

and oh oh! before we walk down the cheesy lane of my appreciative words to her, let me congratulate her for getting the first prize for her group research presentation they conducted in Russia! Alhamdulillah.

now back to the main event.

so this was our first meeting after she came back from Russia and even though I shouldn't have been expecting things from her (bc honestly her whole existence is enough for me), but still,

I was expecting things from her. hahaha

(but seriously though, I don't mind. I've told her before when we were? 16? that she could get me a rock and I'd still appreciate it)

but lmaoooooo who was I kidding... I went back with so many things she got me from Russia and I went (soft-eyes emoji)....

I love everything you got me Alyn, I am sure sfs would too.

and as if all of those were not enough... she got me a peripera lipstick as my early birthday present! ugh. how do I beat her now guys???? comment your ideas.

we then filled up our day by watching fast and furious aand omg we like it so much. highly recommended! Alyn couldn't keep her ass on the seat bc it was very thrilling and exhilarating!

I was like

calm
down,
Alyn.
/facepalm/

I also sat her down at the end of the movie bc I knew there was gonna be end-credits and holy, she really thought that was something only a genius could think of. like.. that's basic.

now to the most awaited event.

I finally had a hold of City Lights album Alyn bought for me. You know how she surprised me? she really pulled a "I already paid for it" word like a bomb. she Did That.

I was furious. Very. Furious. but it's always the thought that counts. I am more grateful than happy. This album now holds a lot more meaning than just being the album of my ultimate bias of 7 years. and I am glad Alyn is a part of it. I can't tell how much I really appreciate this. Oh alexa, maybe I teared up.

like look at it...

It is so elegantTT

Now time to walk on the cheesy lane, you guys may skip lol

Alyn, 

when we first knew each other in 2008, I swear to God that I had in my mind that I wanted to be your friend. you might don't remember this and you might think I am exaggerating, but I was so excited when we sat next to each other for the first time the same year. you know how I was always absent those years in sekolah arab...because I didn't have friends?

and seeing you having a physical fight with the boys had made me secretly wished that I was as sociable. honestly, I thought you were cool.

Therefore, my second attempt (I don't think it's an attempt, I just felt like it) was praising you in the mosque and even though you boastfully replied me (a foreshadow lol) I still didn't feel annoyed. 

Unfortunately, I preferred watching Dora than attending classes haha or we would have been good friends earlier.

but Allah's plan is always better. 

I recognized you instantly when I  first saw you shivering in front of our class in 2011! Yep! Like 'oh look, it's the same person I wanted to be a friend with three years ago!'

and like a knight in shining armor, I helped you and we became desk mates.

Fast forward to today, we are still the same young crackheads of when we first comfortably talked to each other.

All praises to Allah, The Almighty, The Best Planner of all.

okay alexa play been through by exo.

Class Drama '18

tesl students and dramas cannot be separated. i repeat. canNOT.

it was fun for me at least! i prayed all day for me not to get chosen as a prop leader whatever, or anything to art leader- and yay! Alhamdulillah!

There were times I was frustrated, mad and annoyed but thinking that everyone was probably trying their hardest to show their best, I just- aww lil munchkin it's okay you did a good job <3

Talking about that... I always feel the need to assure people they are doing fine, maybe because I wish people would do the same for me kahkah 

wait omg im so annoying. let's get back on the drama track.

oh there was one thing exhibition team had asked- childhood photos. i messaged my fam and they said i had none. lmao. ok. (all the conspiracies of me being adopted is probably true now) so I handed in my sis' childhood photo and I feel so... sorry for everyone who was fooled thinking it's me😔 it's not like we sisters had any difference anyway zzzzz

I took a role of a scammer too, close to a witch idk..? it was just a minor role. there were times I felt tired practicing and helping other teams but I think it all worth it? and I am so gonna miss it but to go through it again??? LOL NO. THANKS.

aaaand we did an excellent job on the stage!! Mr. VC even asked us to perform this drama on other stages and to never stop acting.. haha i cringed so badly but.... thanks.. I guess.. and to the audience who came in a swarm to congratulate and say that they enjoyed our stage.. thank you hihi

that's all! bye!

Missing the chance.

I was so confident I would get the tickets to Korea but Alyn and I agreed to give both of us two days to settle things with our fam first before proceeding with our plan. and so we did! and alhamdulillah mak alyn pun bagi (my parents are just fine as long as there's alyn)

never had I thought that two days were actually too long to be grabbing the top promo tickets. like God, how stupid was I! Did I just think that NOBODY would be fighting for the tickets, on school holidays, with a price like that?! I was being so naïve and I regretted it so much?

I was so dumbfounded finding out that the tickets were sold out TT

I swear I was mourning for a day, thinking "woah.. did i really just miss a golden chance...?"

I could have bought them! I COULD HAVE BOUGHT THEM!!!!

so like, I was so sad I almost cried but this fake-ass roommate of mine (man, if she reads this she would be furious, I love her sdjsjjs) comforted me and uttered such line I don't think I could forget in any moment especially right now (because I am trying hard to holding on to it, so that I would stop blaming myself) that is,

great things come for people who wait.

At that moment I had realized that indeed, Alyn and I were in an absolute rush that I don't think it's be a great idea to be flying to a country by our own, yet. We could if we believe in ourselves (nani de heck? no lol) but I believe that maybe going there one day would be greater and I would pray for the day to come! Maybe next year? idk...

Anyways!

On top of all that, I hope I could meet EXO. That's the top reason why I want to go to Korea in this meantime, because I want to witness their seem-to-be-unfading era and career there. sjsjdkks things I would decide for EXO sometimes still amazes me to this day.

With my runny nose and dry throat tonight, I wish you all a happy day ahead!

Forced to Move into a New House

My morning was extremely cheerful. Hajar and I were even sashaying to our own beat and guess why! it was bc we read joongki and hye gyo's  marriage news! true beauties, aww. not to forget, at exactly 12 a.m. the same day, we were celebrating kak maine's birthday so frickin joyfully too. we truly didn't see what was coming.

takda angin takda ribut, ip*a suddenly asked us to move. into. another. house.

Are we a joke to them? I was so so enraged. and mad. very mad. they actually asked us?? who just moved in bc our room previously was badly damage, into another house again????????? 

no, oh my god do they seriously think we bring only ONE small bag of our stuff? uhm? there are like 10 bags though? and upon confirming the news, I cried so hard that I pengsan right after that (tertidor). and then woke up to a headache after. I felt so down. fuh I can't explain the resentment and hatred I was holding at that moment and I hate how they turned me into a state I had never even seen before in me. It was peak frustrating feeling and highkey tiring istg.

and ofc, being that clingy anak mak, I called and talked to my mom and OMG I wonder again-

"Why moms are SO GREAT?"

they are really a comfort. talking to my mom was like consuming sedative pills. I became so calm and immediately started to see the bright side of what had happened to us. Mak reminded, Allah won't burden a soul beyond it can bear! That's it! Instantly, I turned from being a pessimist into an optimist. (special credit to: mom!) and I can say I moved on so fast from this tragedy. yes. tragedy.

and because it was Kak Maine's birthday, I didn't want to focus much on our hapless day so yeah we tried to shift the mood as Kak Maine was affected too. To do that, Kama and I treated her a cup of TeaLive and thanks to Kama the mood was lifted up pretty quickly. Well, I know I can always count on her, we are merrily connected and at least we manage to pinch Kak Maine's chin up, as well as ours.

and today mark the day. I have packed some of my things, getting lethargically ready to move out tomorrow. still feeling indolent. and ugh have I mentioned about how we had fought with the authority to let us stay but to no avail? sighs. All I can do now is to be positive for I believe everything happens for a reason.

Hm, will dearly miss you, rumah 602B T_____T

spm dah habis!!!

So hi! I am now an official alumni of smka al-irshad. Gembira? tbh, physically YES YES tapi internally uhm tak u____u

I mean, how am I supposed to be happy bila aku dah tak boleh jd part of that school anymore? and that I am only part of its memories shj? sedih tau. I don't know how to say this, but seriously Allah sent me to that school for a reason, kalau tak I can't even imagine the sequences. rebellious. and the fact that I am not going to be with my friends anymore, my Irshad friends that I treasure the most, every single person in my batch, good and bad, listen.. you girls gave me so many valuable lessons, and I would never forget that. Soon we'll all be apart to grow our wings and face new challenges in life,a nd I will definitely miss everyone!

but physically, I could never describe the happiness of finishing school FINALLY kahkah! (gila mcm baca plot twist)

the first thing is that, tak payah pakai baju sekolah dah! and that I'll temporarily homework-less and pressure-less. omg, sukanya!

and here a summary of what my friends and I did yesterday right after we finished bio... konfem konfem la gang up pergi makan! tunggu lagi? like I can see how everyone was so hyped taking pictures here and there but the first thing we did was makan. hopeless. I like it like that but yeah rasa rugi sikit tak ambil gambar kelmarin but we recorded videos. hehe!

and yesterday was alyn's birthday! What a happy ending, haha.

and lastly,