2018 in conclusion

(I know there are 5 days more before we step into the new year but I'm pretty sure I am going to be busy by then bc back to Ipba... well)

2018 had been a good year for me, like real good, Alhamdulillah. if you have ever hurt me, don't worry! I'd probably forgiven you! (sbb tak significant, tak ingat. wek) (tbh I don't really cry over random people, it was mostly bc of exo or when I suddenly miss my family uhu)

btw, I would name this year as - A Step. (See? I've been living for 20years now and it's only been a step. ONE. smh farhan hasanah (but it could be because im just bad at naming things, or year here lmao)

I think Ramadhan this year was absolutely beautiful and meaningful. Other than what I've told in my previous post, (click here to read) my siblings and I ventured into- business (my bro's) and anyone could tell I disliked being a part of it, at first. but seeing my siblings' enthusiasm actually made me blend in. A lot of experiences I gained there.

and no, I still don't like it but not as much as before anymore! I started my own massage counter remember? That, I believe bc of this impact haha (so that's the step)

and then to meeting EXO! first time! (another step here) Never been so happier than that day. This, ladies and gentlemen, is the highlight of my 2018! meeting my boys and actually watching them perform right before my eyes, touching the barricade. What a bliss. 

also, 2018 is the year I gained a bit of confidence in my writing. It's not that it's great, but at least now is better than the 19 year-old me's writing. got lots of online mutuals in the process too, I am very very glad.

also in my urut! thanks to kakti, kama and kak maine! if not because of their hype and support... I wouldn't get to taste my own hard-earned money.

about my study, well... does being a script-writer count? haha and lastly,

to all the people who made my year 2018 This memorable, thank you! (or didn't make, for eg: kem unit beruniform lol) even though i love learning about ikatan!!!!! until when I tried applying it in reali life and omeone really just came to tell me

"IKAT JE LAH MACAM BIASA"

uhm k :c baru semangat.

....now into 2019! whoops I am going to be a year older..... whatever. there are still stuff about me that 2018 hasn't beat- my fear towards commitment, how I cope with laziness and ill feelings towards certain people, and a loooot more. I hope I could improve on those. Gonna leave them to 2019!

last but not least, I wish nothing but goodness to me and everyone around me. thank you!

Do what the doctors say

when I tell you to just do what the doctor says, do it!!!!! don't act a genius, don't go against them, if they say something that hurt you, instead of sighing to them, understand that you lack something which they don't, apologise to them and promise to follow whatever they say, they are doctors, and you.. you are not.

(Ok the last few sentences are obviously meme I took from twitter)

anyway,

my shoulder is the walking example of what could happen if you don't listen to them.... it's still so painful every now and then.. this is why. if my child ever do what I did, imma pull his or her sideburns- both sides!!! (mak where were you at that time...)

so first, imma flaunt myself- I was a fighter. long story short, I injured my shoulder in a softball game when I slid past the catcher and she butchered me in an attempt to tag me out at home plate (THE UMPIRE CALLED SAFEEEE - ONE POINT TO GRYFINDORRRR)

and by the time I realised I was already on the way to the hospital. lol. 

which I didn't understand why... bc I was fine though... except my shoulder....?

I knew exactly where that was going, the doctor was surely gonna refrain me from playing the next day, which was also the last day of the tournament. unacceptable!!! bc hello? I was one of the important players! (flips hair, I was the catcher) and so, I was very determined that whatever this doctor was gonna say, I was definitely going to go against him.

yes him. bc I remember he was bald lol. so the whole time he was checking my shoulder I told him I was okay, and asked him to allow me to play.

I shouldn't have done this but bc I am (self-claim) honest, I begged him to tell me it's okay. and when he didn't, I told him he was wrong (the audacity)

The whole session I argued with him that I knew myself and what my shoulder was capable of (bullsh*t) and please y'all he was so frustrated, he told me "kamu rasa kenapa kepala saya botak??? saya kata kamu tak boleh main!"

I was like *hold my tears* SO WHAT???????? (dalam hati)

....ok doctor you were lucky my teacher was with me, or else /rolls up sleeves/ I will... eeeeee..... (I know I sounded dumb but please I was 16)

so you know I had to go back wearing the arm sling.... and my stubborn self... really took it out right after my teacher dropped me. idk what went on my mind (but uhhh so wild 16-year-old farhan hasanah!) if I hadn't done that this pain wouldn't have obscured me forever. and even wilder, the next day I still played... I mean ofc my coach was on the doc's side.. but I still played when my friends were training. istg it was actually painful but I was a good (and stupid) actress....

hope that gives you a lesson bc really... you don't want to go against them, ever! the next time I ever meet that doctor I'll apologize... bc indeed, you are bald for a reason *cries in a shoulder-crack language*

Sem Break

holla everyone! how's your day? mine is ...alhamdulillah excellent! Just having another chance to live today make me so grateful and happy. I had few goals in my mind before I went home this break and one of them was to get a part-time job. Alhamdulillah this was rather easy so yeah landed myself a job almost immediately after I went home.. and the best thing is.. my day off is on Monday! How brilliant? and bc my boss is my bro so like...

it's good to have a say on everything you are asked to do. for example of when exo had their broadcast last night and I asked him to come straight after his work so I could go home early or when you want your day off, or when you want to eat, you just order. lmao my working ethics but hey I have never had my day off yet so 10points for me haha truthfully it was tiring to see my bro, idk why he had to choose this career when he already has a very stable job (but nah imma pretend I understand and bc he just likes Business) but what I don't understand is probably the way he turned down so many great offers from overseas so that he could take care of his business (bc hello you can hand it down to me?? LOL) but as a good and obedient little sister who probably has no significant in his life, I am going to support him.

and! second goal was picking up my reading. I used to read a lot when I was 17 so I bought lots of books and until today, 3 years later, I still haven't finished most of them.. typical fake enthusiastic girl haha (and bc I am more caught up with fanfics online which Is So Good Y'all really won't have any idea if you never read them) so uhm proud to say I have read two books this entire break..?

I had so many other goals but I don't think it's ever worth mentioning bc it's just things lads usually do in the house with family which I am so grateful for (until farhan hanis had to barged into my room and annoy me EVERY SINGLE SECOND and so I asked her to compensate it by treating me. always work) and I have the whole room to Myself...... bc farhan husna is currently away from home... super great. but not great realising you have less people treating you food bc farhan hanisah is also away :/ and aurora my niece!!!!! my sem break is definitely brighter bc of her haha

This is how my sem break is! and needless to say... exo too.... uhm nevermind......

(ha folks You Thought!)

EXO REALLY SAID LET'S MAKE HASANAH'S SEM BREAK MORE MEANINGFUL THIS YEAR. oooffffsh gotta love my men! Thanks!