How college changed me


How college changed me?

The answer is, a lot. except that I am still messy.

First, I learn going out on my own. You know? the whole me before 2016 would be shocked. who would have thought the girl who couldn't even walk pass by a stranger alone could finally go out, take a bus, eat, hang out- all Alone? this whole cycle teaches me lots of things. one of them is- nobody cares about you, so carry yourself, Yourself.

Secondly, (god forbid any of you bringing this up in front of me) my college teaches me how to be grateful. as a fully functioning annoying and fussy human being, I know I badmouth a lot about the condition and facilities in this college, but at the end of the day, God always leads me back to see how things are worse outside, heck some would even do anything to be in my shoes. My mom always stresses me about this, I hardly ever hear her complains. So when I do, she would shut me real quick with words like, 'be patient for Allah wouldn't burden a soul beyond what it can bear'. simple but when uttered by your Mother, it soothes every single burning cell in your body, so you are back to "Ok I am chill now" mark as life goes on while you count your blessings. Well, not until you encounter another problem and there comes again the cycle.

Next, most of my friends before would agree that I was an extrovert, heck even I thought so. but being here, surrounded by housemates who prefer their lone time more than our group time, I found myself following their suit. and I like. it. not attaching yourself to someone really make you stress-free. I get to know myself better too, especially on what /I/ want. All thanks to them. I love them so much. I am never restricted to hold onto my own opinion even if it is different from theirs. We fight and we correct each other, without any sarcastic remark and any personal feelings involved or without any unnecessary rolling eyes needed. Gossip? this is the best part of my housemates. We speak little about other people... like honestly. Is this how an adult life like? bc... I kinda like it but I hate the fact that I am /gasp/ 21 now..... what. the. apple.

My housemates are really like my family. Maybe because when I am with them, I am 95% myself so I am always super happy. Ok enough about housemates I am gonna end up writing a whole post about them. With that I wanna correct myself: My housemates are annoying I Hate Them. Thank you.

All these changes weren't the one I had in my mind when I prayed to Him to give me friends and surrounding that would strengthen me, way before I came here.

You know what I had in mind? strength from people who would /support/ whatever I do or think. but you see what He gave me? Circle of friends of the complete opposite. and with that, I gain strength of gripping myself better than I ever did before. His plans are indeed the best! in a way I got what I had prayed for too! Alhamdulillah.


also the most prominent change in myself is my melatah has switched from "oh mak hang" to "oh mak Kau" ah, am i Proud.

Swing Kids and Kyungsoo's Birthday Events


ok holla everyone, last saturday was a blast for me (and alyn but who cares about her here) I was already so excited to hear that kyungsoo's movie was coming on Jan, so everyday after the 8th I checked on gsc website to book the ticket! phew that effort. but of Course the ticket wasn't out yet bc "let's make hasanah even more anxious!" was the concept they went after. lame.

and after all the wait and drain, ewah and the urge from alyn herself (idk what her right was to force me to buy them tickets early), we booked 12th Jan ticket- (kyungsoo's birthday!) at MyTown. Yes MyTown, that one mall we make a routine to buy oden at its FamMart? we grabbed our quick breakfast there and (again) I dragged Alyn to GSC bc this girl thought this business wasn't serious. excuse me, my man was gonna be on that big screen, we've gotta be there at least 30mins before the hall opens?!?!

...but lol the hall only opened 3mins before the show started... apparently bc the staff forgot. smh.

I was thankful for that actually. There was Goobne Chicken store near GSC and there were exo cut boards around! my heart jumped in so much joy!!!! Alyn just had to utter,

"Your Face Looks So Happy, o m g"

and she gave me her fake disbelief look, and dared to roll her eyes too. this girl was lucky I was in a very bright mood.

and lol I was also legit tearing up (bc I smiled so widely) people are gonna say I was /again/ dramatic but being there with cut boards EXO and my bestfriend, made me felt so overwhelmed! I mean, look at the pictures below!


my smile was so genuine and yes hasanah, you. looked. so. happy. meanwhile alyn...

Swing Kids was beyond my expectation. I was scared I wouldn't like that movie and all those good reviews just came from fans, but it's doh kyungsoo! He almost never disappoints me with his acting project. Quoting from Alyn, a non-fan (and not bc I shoved a knife on her throat),

"I give this movie 5 out of 5 stars"

and I beamed with a super proud smile. hiks. you really gotta watch the movie yourself and you'll see why people like it So much! Speaking of this movie, I miss Roh Ki Soo ;(

Have I told you all 12th Jan is also kyungsoo's birthday? perfect. after dining at seoul garden hotpot, I was eager to bring Alyn to see how fandom works on members' birthday! we went to two kyungsoo's birthday events and I was again So DELIGHTFUL, HAPPY, and EXCITED! See it for yourself I guess?



Ha jk. There's nothing much to see.

All in all, I would like to thank Alyn for her willingness to follow me around frankly because she loves seeing me happy. (she said) uwu friendship goals. (well not until she Had to embarrass me in front of other exo-ls attending the events with her fake exo-ls accent! shameful!)

and at the end of the day, I called my mom to say,

"Mom I am so happy!!!! eee!!"
"EXO?"

dang. (Not motherly instinct, she saw my ig stories lol)

I think I was so happy simply bc I could fully be myself with Alyn around like, I could go alone or with others but I don't think I would be That happy???

(in 3seconds, count how many time I wrote 'happy' in this post ...tang!) and lastly,


to more years of you suffering listening to me, Norazlyn, muah.