Blissful Birthday

Alhamdulillah, I got to spend my 21st birthday in my hometown after so many years and honestly, like previous years, I did not expect much bc my fam rarely celebrates birthdays. We would usually wish each other and say goodbye. Therefore I am easily satisfied with anything. The older I get, the less expectation I have.

but this year, given the date fell on the same date as eid al-adha, I guess everyone felt like it was a chance for them to celebrate it and I still have no word to express my gratitude and gratefulness for having them in my life, my family and friends.

All the wishes, failed surprises (yes, surpriseS bc both my fam and my friends failed to surprise me hahaha), gifts, birthday song, movie date... If I were to die that day, I would die on cloud nine.

First of all, SFS were Such crackheads istg, they thought I would get sad over not getting my wish on 12am? they were being so obvious that they didn't wanna wish me so I'd already had an idea that they were going to surprise me that day -______-

and I was right. again, they were being VERY Obvious that they were getting me something from Dominos we went to. I felt so bad I couldn't stand the urge to tell them that

"OK GIRLS JUST LET IT OUT ALREADY I KNOW YOU GIRLS PREPARED SOMETHING"

but being an understanding friend, I played dumb. and acted surprised too. dang I should have had my Oscar trophy by now.

and yeah I brought hadif along too. he thought we were celebrating him (ugh kids) 

and after all the laugh and wishes, thanks to hadif, we went to watch boboiboy 2 which is.. 

oh m gee. it is So Amazing. we were all in awe (kids indeed always teach us something, thanks hadif) it was one of my best decisions ever. gone all my friends' perceptions about this movie (ive always been very fond of boboiboy though) I wanna watch it the second time.... I LOVE it.

now let's get to how I know my fam was going to surprise me. like any of my previous birthday my expectation was low so they actually had a chance to grandly surprise me.

but haziq decided to ruin it -_________-

when my bro and my SIL came back, they were supposed to put the cake in the fridge via back door so while they were in the middle of doing that, haziq was all around me smiling and obstructing me from walking anywhere 

LIKE PLEASE I WASN'T EVEN PLANNING TO GO AND SEE WHAT'S OUTSIDE IF IT AIN'T BECAUSE OF HIM THAT WAS STANDING ON MY WAY AND MADE ME CURIOUS. 

so I Went and straight away saw my SIL with a cake. it was really awkward bc I knew it was for me lol. I immediately turned to haziq and smacked his head, laughed and pretended nothing happened.

what's funnier, as they were caught red-handed, kak anih later came and convinced me that the cake was not for me. you all gotta see her facehahkghsdjkb

dia ingat aku bebudak ke hahahahahaha

that night when we were eating the most delicious bihun sup by our mom, they switched off the light and brought out the cake while singing a birthday song for me.

all of that for hadif to blow my candles -___________________-

yes, another dominos in the house haha

I feel so blessed Alhamdulillah. and thank you everyone for the wishes. I really, really appreciate them :)

Motivational Talk with My Pupils

last wednesday me and my other two practicum mates were given a chance to have a pep talk with the year-6 kids. the odds were the teacher somehow found out about our result and decided that we were an opportunity he didn't wanna miss.

so there we were that morning, scratching our heads, sighing and burying our heads down the table trying to figure out what we were going to talk about. we were expected to talk- as to inspire. so tell me, how a mere ordinary 21 year-old like me would be able to pull that?

nevertheless I still walked into the hall through their flaming gaze towards the front. their glowing eyes traced me as if I were to drop some magical tips for them to score their exam. I thought I would crumble out of nervousness but omg lol it was a whole lot different from my expectation because sitting in front of me that moment were the innocent souls whose future is lying bright ahead of them.

Immediately I regretted that I did not prepare myself enough other than a short note I scrabbled quickly before that session (it's helpful still.) but time was up to ponder over it so I picked the mic and started.

and fuh.

I had never felt this confident in my life- being able to deliver my stories, quite interestingly to the kids with full penang loghat.

I believe the major factor was because I spoke utagha kehkeh. like... that was incomparable. it's like the wall was instantly destroyed with it. powerful. I could see how I wasn't disappointing the kids. At least I could tell how they were attentive to my loghat aka my talk. lol.

It was a good experience after all. Who wouldve thought that?

In case you are wondering, yes I was saying

 "hampa tau dakkkkkk"

MyTown Date with Alyn

well, here we go again.

mytown mytown mytown..... when will Alyn and I ever grow up... like there's really no other place for us other than malls but whatever (rolls eyes) im gonna save this for another post.

*clears throat*

we were apart for a month so of course we I was all giddy and excited bc I missed her so much! (to slap her when I laugh out loud)

and oh oh! before we walk down the cheesy lane of my appreciative words to her, let me congratulate her for getting the first prize for her group research presentation they conducted in Russia! Alhamdulillah.

now back to the main event.

so this was our first meeting after she came back from Russia and even though I shouldn't have been expecting things from her (bc honestly her whole existence is enough for me), but still,

I was expecting things from her. hahaha

(but seriously though, I don't mind. I've told her before when we were? 16? that she could get me a rock and I'd still appreciate it)

but lmaoooooo who was I kidding... I went back with so many things she got me from Russia and I went (soft-eyes emoji)....

I love everything you got me Alyn, I am sure sfs would too.

and as if all of those were not enough... she got me a peripera lipstick as my early birthday present! ugh. how do I beat her now guys???? comment your ideas.

we then filled up our day by watching fast and furious aand omg we like it so much. highly recommended! Alyn couldn't keep her ass on the seat bc it was very thrilling and exhilarating!

I was like

calm
down,
Alyn.
/facepalm/

I also sat her down at the end of the movie bc I knew there was gonna be end-credits and holy, she really thought that was something only a genius could think of. like.. that's basic.

now to the most awaited event.

I finally had a hold of City Lights album Alyn bought for me. You know how she surprised me? she really pulled a "I already paid for it" word like a bomb. she Did That.

I was furious. Very. Furious. but it's always the thought that counts. I am more grateful than happy. This album now holds a lot more meaning than just being the album of my ultimate bias of 7 years. and I am glad Alyn is a part of it. I can't tell how much I really appreciate this. Oh alexa, maybe I teared up.

like look at it...

It is so elegantTT

Now time to walk on the cheesy lane, you guys may skip lol

Alyn, 

when we first knew each other in 2008, I swear to God that I had in my mind that I wanted to be your friend. you might don't remember this and you might think I am exaggerating, but I was so excited when we sat next to each other for the first time the same year. you know how I was always absent those years in sekolah arab...because I didn't have friends?

and seeing you having a physical fight with the boys had made me secretly wished that I was as sociable. honestly, I thought you were cool.

Therefore, my second attempt (I don't think it's an attempt, I just felt like it) was praising you in the mosque and even though you boastfully replied me (a foreshadow lol) I still didn't feel annoyed. 

Unfortunately, I preferred watching Dora than attending classes haha or we would have been good friends earlier.

but Allah's plan is always better. 

I recognized you instantly when I  first saw you shivering in front of our class in 2011! Yep! Like 'oh look, it's the same person I wanted to be a friend with three years ago!'

and like a knight in shining armor, I helped you and we became desk mates.

Fast forward to today, we are still the same young crackheads of when we first comfortably talked to each other.

All praises to Allah, The Almighty, The Best Planner of all.

okay alexa play been through by exo.