#Olympics_EXO

I want to be able to look back at this post and admire the biggest love I would ever have for someone in my life hence I am writing this.

I have been stanning them since 2012. It's been 6 years and my love and pride for them are still growing, even bigger at that. I am ridiculous yes. anyway back to the topic, today, 25/2/2018, another history is marked under EXO's belt. wallahi my chest was bursting with so much pride and still is. EXO, the "Nation's Pick" has successfully performed at Olympics Closing Ceremony stage! yes O L Y M P I C S. it will take another 20 years for another Olympics to be held in Korea and they, out of all Kpop acts, were chosen for thIS era. The era I am living in. I couldn't describe what I feel. I squealed so hard that I woke up my roommate in shock (sorry za, I didn't mean it. I was just too excited and I forgot you were sleeping...)

like I don't care if Olympics are insignificant to others, but it is not, to me. this is probably one of the events that brings the whole fandom together at a time like, it's too overwhelming and I can't really describe. (I am silly I know haha)

I have yet to download EXO's whole performances but I tell you.. IT WAS EPIC. THEY WERE AMAZING. I HAD GOOSEBUMPS ALL OVER AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. (oops sorry for the capslock, not sorry) 

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I really wish I could meet them and when it happens, I think I would be the happiest girl on earth.

Tiring Dilemma

Oh I love buying things (like who doesn't) but the phase of BEFORE and AFTER buying the thing always always and always burdens me. I always have my sisters and parents in my mind before I buy something (like is it FAIR for me to buy this when my siblings don't? and my parents! they work so hard for me to buy... things?) and after buying it? THE WORST. I would contemplate for days especially when I feel unsatisfied with it (which happens like MOST OF THE TIME)

I don't have to bring old memories, it legit happened just now. 

Ok, previously I had Innisfree Jeju Volcanic Clay Mask on my buying list but because of the "BEFORE phase of buying things" I told you above, I decided I didn't wanna buy it.

but this annoying roommate of mine (not surprise) cunningly  persuaded me that I should treat myself sometimes (wth she's saying, I've always had good time spending money on fancy food when I go out kot??)

but being the forgetful me, I bought her words (oh my god I HAVE ONLY BOUGHT PERIPERA 2 DAYS AGO TOO WHY THE FRUIT I LISTENED TO HER *shoves knife to saza*)

so like people often do, I added the stuff into my cart and *kaching* paid for it! (haha I deadass woke up, signed up for hermo and straight away bought it sdfjkslds I swear my roommate's a witch!) and then after a few minutes bla bla, I got triggered- it's like my body alarmed all my cells to like 

"GATHER EVERYONE, TIME TO GET ANXIOUS!" all because I felt unsatisfied and yeah I could imagine all my cells running here and there, creating chaos. just like me.

so what I did was I opened lots of new tabs, just to see the review (again!), got assurance from my roommate (haha freak, again), told my concern in SFS (sound suuuuper annoying too, can't be helped), also to my sis (the most helpful) and lastly, kakti (who's next to my room). THAT'S 5 SOURCES AND BACK-UP IN TOTAL.

damn, I seriously need to be treated.

Missing the chance.

I was so confident I would get the tickets to Korea but Alyn and I agreed to give both of us two days to settle things with our fam first before proceeding with our plan. and so we did! and alhamdulillah mak alyn pun bagi (my parents are just fine as long as there's alyn)

never had I thought that two days were actually too long to be grabbing the top promo tickets. like God, how stupid was I! Did I just think that NOBODY would be fighting for the tickets, on school holidays, with a price like that?! I was being so naïve and I regretted it so much?

I was so dumbfounded finding out that the tickets were sold out TT

I swear I was mourning for a day, thinking "woah.. did i really just miss a golden chance...?"

I could have bought them! I COULD HAVE BOUGHT THEM!!!!

so like, I was so sad I almost cried but this fake-ass roommate of mine (man, if she reads this she would be furious, I love her sdjsjjs) comforted me and uttered such line I don't think I could forget in any moment especially right now (because I am trying hard to holding on to it, so that I would stop blaming myself) that is,

great things come for people who wait.

At that moment I had realized that indeed, Alyn and I were in an absolute rush that I don't think it's be a great idea to be flying to a country by our own, yet. We could if we believe in ourselves (nani de heck? no lol) but I believe that maybe going there one day would be greater and I would pray for the day to come! Maybe next year? idk...

Anyways!

On top of all that, I hope I could meet EXO. That's the top reason why I want to go to Korea in this meantime, because I want to witness their seem-to-be-unfading era and career there. sjsjdkks things I would decide for EXO sometimes still amazes me to this day.

With my runny nose and dry throat tonight, I wish you all a happy day ahead!

Forced to Move into a New House

My morning was extremely cheerful. Hajar and I were even sashaying to our own beat and guess why! it was bc we read joongki and hye gyo's  marriage news! true beauties, aww. not to forget, at exactly 12 a.m. the same day, we were celebrating kak maine's birthday so frickin joyfully too. we truly didn't see what was coming.

takda angin takda ribut, ip*a suddenly asked us to move. into. another. house.

Are we a joke to them? I was so so enraged. and mad. very mad. they actually asked us?? who just moved in bc our room previously was badly damage, into another house again????????? 

no, oh my god do they seriously think we bring only ONE small bag of our stuff? uhm? there are like 10 bags though? and upon confirming the news, I cried so hard that I pengsan right after that (tertidor). and then woke up to a headache after. I felt so down. fuh I can't explain the resentment and hatred I was holding at that moment and I hate how they turned me into a state I had never even seen before in me. It was peak frustrating feeling and highkey tiring istg.

and ofc, being that clingy anak mak, I called and talked to my mom and OMG I wonder again-

"Why moms are SO GREAT?"

they are really a comfort. talking to my mom was like consuming sedative pills. I became so calm and immediately started to see the bright side of what had happened to us. Mak reminded, Allah won't burden a soul beyond it can bear! That's it! Instantly, I turned from being a pessimist into an optimist. (special credit to: mom!) and I can say I moved on so fast from this tragedy. yes. tragedy.

and because it was Kak Maine's birthday, I didn't want to focus much on our hapless day so yeah we tried to shift the mood as Kak Maine was affected too. To do that, Kama and I treated her a cup of TeaLive and thanks to Kama the mood was lifted up pretty quickly. Well, I know I can always count on her, we are merrily connected and at least we manage to pinch Kak Maine's chin up, as well as ours.

and today mark the day. I have packed some of my things, getting lethargically ready to move out tomorrow. still feeling indolent. and ugh have I mentioned about how we had fought with the authority to let us stay but to no avail? sighs. All I can do now is to be positive for I believe everything happens for a reason.

Hm, will dearly miss you, rumah 602B T_____T